I am Jacob Mum, and it wuld be his 23rd birthday today,and i knoew that it been 22 years since that beautiful morning ever, but it doesnt get easier or better or leave your mind, its just as hard today as it was 20 years ago, except that ive learnt that nothing is going to bring my angel back home to me, so today , ill be a mess of insomnia, crying smiing, sounding crazy as i chat to my boy. alot of people have said to me over the years that its easier to grieve for a 7 month old than , say a 20 year old, hwever , as ive explained, thats not true, its a different type of grief. a different sort of loss. anyway.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY OWN LITTLE ANGEL, YOUR LAUGHTER AND DEEP BLUES WILL FOREVER FOLLOW ME, AND I KNOW YOUR WITH ME AT IN MY DARKEST MOMENTS. I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH XXXXX